ME & HIM

2010-09-13T15:49:00.002+08:00

on leave for 2 days due to renovation (House Upgrading)
busy online surfing wedding tips

realised that just only preparation for ROM is not that easy
or should i say every single thing is not easy at all

set our ROM lunch on 1/1/11
the very first day of 2011

looking for civil servant to help me book chalet
at a special/privilige rate so that we can save more
for our wedding dinner

i know it kinda hard as it is a public holidays

is there any kind hearted who can help me book?

2010-07-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

2nd months to my probation
one more month to end it
seriously, i really enjoyed my new job
and i love the people there

i must say there is not much political
and i am well taken care by so many seniors
including my manager and GM

this is really my first time feeling so loved by them
working with them is so much fun
i meant it when i say working

i used to think that working is just to spend time off
i just hoped that the time, the day can past faster
but no matter how hard i wish for,
it never come true and the time still went on so slow
slow until i hate my job so much
less nonsense, more work, more complaint, and more stressed

but now, working here make me realised that time really well spent
with less stressed, more friends
they are the one showing their true colors of themselves
and not faking out to show that they cared

I LOVE MY JOB SO MUCH NOW:)

2010-05-31T15:33:00.000+08:00

first day of the week
and i am really not feeling well
still under probation but i took half day

GM just came back from china
and he is having meeting with all the managers
i sat under my desk as i do not want others to find out
that i am sick

out of sudden, i vomited
and thanks god, i have a good colleague quickly rushed to my desk

she bought me a super hot water

my cramps was really unbearable
i cant take the pain at all

when my manager came out, i vomited twice

shit! i vomited thrice time
why my cramp hurt me so much this month?

i hate cramp!
why my 2 sis do not feel anything when they have period?
why i feel so badly every month?
i hate period!
i hate being a lady
i am suffering the pain
please stop my pain!

2010-05-10T20:54:00.003+08:00

had been working in my new company for one week
and i must say the good thing first
that is i can save on my transport,
there will be a pickup bus for us

the bad things are...
majority of the website is 'Access Denied'
its really very bored without internet access
how am i going to survive it?

and working hours are damn early
sometimes i just sleep less than 5 hours
i must say i very very sleepy at work

but.. compared to my previous job
this job is lesser stressed, bigger company
and more aunties
topics to me is such a 'no-related' to my life
i mean now..

here and there always the same topic-my children
how am i going to communicate with them?
i have no experience being a mummy
i only have experience in taking care of my 2 precious

boring~
how long will i be survive in this company?

2010-03-29T19:46:00.002+08:00

seriously, which would you choose? family? friends?
for some people they will choose friends because they don't have a warmth family
but what if someone has a warmth family and still they choose friends?

is friend her most important people instead of her own family?
FAMILY - Father And Mother I Love You

forget it, there is no point for some people who don't treasure their own family
and is a waste of my time and saliva talking to this type of people

if she thinks that gossip about others is so much fun, go ahead
don't blame people who does this to you
YOU DESERVE THIS !!
the world is round
don't expect people to treat you well if you are not treating yourself well

all i can say is I HAVE DONE MY PART !!
i used cap locks just in case you have cock eyes

just do your own soul searching before you shout at others
you're not doing anything except gossiping

office politics is you this type of people
who goes around gossiping
please lahs, do your part !

2010-03-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

back again for a quick update

first, i have to wish my precious boy
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
times fly fast and he is now 5years old
it means to say my beloved mum left us 5years ago

recalled back..
he was brought back by my dad during his birthday
when he was 2months old
and we took it as my dad's birthday present

my mum strongly disagreed about feeding a puppy
cause it really needs a lot of time to take care of him
and of course, it costs a lot

this puppy of mine soon accepted by my mum
maybe he is too adorable
hahas~

i remembered clearly..
one night, my mum woke up and called for him
(i don't know why my mum looked for him)
and in my heart, i told myself that hopefully she could not find him
cause at that point of time, my mum don't like him
so so... i fell asleep and i don't know what happened next
LOLS!

the days my mum passed away, we brought him to my mum's wake
just hoped that my mum would be able to talk to him
as i knew that dogs have special 'eyes'
just took it as accompanied my mum for her last journey
maybe this way my mum won't feel bored

without fail, for the 5days, he slept beside her wake
and what made me heartpain was that he did not eat much
he cried, i meant it when i said he cried
he has tearing eyes for don't know how many days
i knew clearly that dogs know what is happening

the same year, on christmas, xiao bai was given away by my dad's friend
and my dad brought her back
yes, we have 2 adorable 'best friends'

i really not regretted on the decision my dad brought home
maybe i must say thank you to my dad
for having such a wonderful 'best friends'

anyway, every year on 10 MARCH, we are celebrating his birthday
seriously, i never forget this day before
cause i have to appreciate them for accompany us
maybe this special day is more important than my own birthday

HAPPY BELATED 5TH BIRTHDAY, MR BEI

2010-02-12T14:58:00.002+08:00

heys, i am back again
times really fly damn fast
tomorrow is CNY eve
and...and..
time is getting nearer and nearer
anyway, face the fact, face the time, face the reality
what is more i can say now?

being staying since the start of February
have not been studying much due to late night sleep
after holidays, i will start to study
but will i have enough time to study 3 modules?
wish me goodluck in this exam

anyway, an early wishing to everyone
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!
hoped you enjoy yourself

2010-02-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

back again
finally quit my job
i meant it, i finally left the company
didnt accept boss's request to stay for one more month
truth speaking, it really very stressed working there
with little guidance

okay, shall not talk about it

now, i have plenty of time studying for my upcoming exam
i just hoped i can get really good results
i need to put in more efforts

now, with no monthly income
it means i have to save

alright..........
now, i didnt expect much

CNY coming soon
one more week to go
am i waiting for this new year?

i doubt so.....
i am leaving Singapore and not celebrating here
i mean, i going to Nepal for holidays
just a plain holidays
my first time CNY, celebrating in elsewhere

this was purely not my plan, not my idea
CNY is the time we meet up with relatives, cousins, etc
but now..
i left with no choice

2010-01-20T21:28:00.002+08:00

today, 20.01.2010 was one of my sad day
baby girl only one week old
and had just passed away

i thought new year had begun
and we had something to busy to
something to celebrate
something to joy for
but now,
my hope is gone, she is gone, her life is gone

maybe i am regretting now
why must i work?
is her life better than my job?

i dont know and i dont wish to find the answer out
maybe this is not her wish too

i took 2 days mc just because i knew she is coming to this earth
and i took one unpaid leave just to make sure she is well fed
i talked to her everday, i fed her everyday
i really dont mind that 10mins to feed her with milk before and after work

maybe that 10mins was too little for her,
she needs more care and time from us

just a short one week, i am really cried for her
i missed her small body
i missed her yawning faces
i missed carrying her with my hand
and i missed feeding her

goodbyes, baby girl
you are my love, goodbye

2010-01-03T13:50:00.002+08:00

it had been quite a long time since i last posted
2009 was the history
2010 is the present

thought of resigning of my current job
on the last day of 2009
but i requested to extend for one more month
and so, my good boss agreed to it

on a happy note, i took one unpaid week
for the first week of 2010
heeee
going to Genting - 6th to 8th jan

hooray!

2009-10-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

i must say that i really facing stressed
went to hospital to see my doctor
and he didnt really support me of going for CT scan
because i did those tests and tested that my brain is fine
and doing CT scan repeatedly might ended up with brain tumor
sound dangerous

think twice and give up the idea of doing this scan
alright then
dear had helped me type my resignation letter
it depends when i wanna submit
because i had not been sleeping well
ever since i started working this

dear supports me of resigning
but thinking of the first bonus i may be getting
i really drop the idea again
if i really cannot take it, my letter is ready

sad to hear that i cant relax even when i wanted to sleep
work work work
studies after work
i cant continue to lose sleep
because i might end up depression

i am tired and sleepy

all i hoped for is just one week leave day
i need to adjust my life
wish me good luck~

2009-09-24T15:58:00.002+08:00

2nd day mc
didnt rest much
couldnt sleep at night
when i fall sleep, it going 5am

i wanted to quit my job
my job gave me stressed
all along, i thought i have been used to it
to my new working environment
but then, i realized i didn't managed to

its give me more trouble
to quit or take more leaves?
i dont know

have i regret of taking account course?
have i not consider the consequence when i take this course?
or maybe have i been weak in physically?

i want freedom
i want my life back
i dont want this type of life that i survived now

i need rest
i need more rest to help me feel stronger in every ways

what should i do?
talk to boss or boss's sister?
or keep it all to myself?

i cant take it every now and then
i cry when i cant sleep at night
why is me again?
why?
why every bad things fall on me?

is this my fate? my life?
please, anyone tell me off

i want studies more than my job
i need more time to adjust

im tired now,
very tired of my job

2009-09-23T17:51:00.002+08:00

its been quite a super long time since i last post
im super tired after a long day at work
i must say that my job isnt a simple job
i dont have a single day to relax myself
unless is a weekend

now i got sick again
because of stressed
i really very fed up with my job
i have so many things in my hand
and i need to rush before the penalty

i going back to hospital to checkup again
my headache on-off back
i hate it !
even my mc day, i wouldnt study much
and and...
my mc left with 2days
how am i going to survive till end of 2009?

i must say that im begining to feel weak
i need rest
give me some days to relax
i want holidays

2009-07-18T01:20:00.002+08:00

being quite a long while i didnt post
due to my very stressed and tight working and studying environment

i'm studying at the same time now
and i cant really cope with it
i'm learning at work and school

i started to hate studies cause i cant get the answer
no matter how many times i tried out, i cant get the answer
i need some leave days to settle my studies

i know i have been taking 3 days MC less than a month
and i dont know will my boss be thinking that i'm too weak?

i hate work at the start cause i'm a no experience in this line
and i need to learn and absorb new things
but now, maybe i'm coping well with my work
hopefully it can last longer

i'm quite stressed and tired after work
i cant be the same as i worked in harvey norman before
i need to go home after dinner to get enough sleep
and, if i cant finish my work, i cant sleep well
and i hate to work OT cause no claim

anyway, my job is stressed
i do not want to get sick cause of stressed
i need to sleep now

2009-06-26T22:48:00.002+08:00

my blog had been dead
surposed to start work at 1st july but..
boss called up and asked me start work early
due to someone is resigning
so have to so called ' take over ' her

anyway, i should say, the first day was damn stressed up
because i didnt have any experience and have to start from scratch
which made me damn damn hard to absorb alot of things at the same time

now, already my forth day of work, i should say..
my pc has no internet explorer and cant make any personal calls
but, i am learning and getting to see clearer picture of what to do

i must challenge myself, i must not resign so fast
when i faced problem
i must learnt from enuice because she has no accounts background and no experience
yet, she is doing so fine right now

jia you jia you!

2009-06-17T13:03:00.004+08:00

wanted to change my blogskin to a better look
but who knows, i changed from template to layout
its like damn ugly
i simply hate this layout

though its sort of easy to use as compare to template
but still, i dont like this layout

i hate my new look of blog
tell me how am i going to change back to the old template

i am not in the mood to blog
i need to go out

2009-06-16T14:24:00.002+08:00

sometimes i do wonder why some people dont like to listen to other's advice?
advice is told to be benefits or good to someone
but why cant he listen to us?
dont he think that ours advice is to be listened
than an outsider?
i hate to hear you complaint this and that
cause we had told you numerous times to stop whatever nonsense
stop complaining!
i hate that!

i hate the way you are now
i hate the attitudes you gave us
personally, i dont hate you but the changes you have made

seriously, FAMILY stands for :
Father
And
Mother
I
Love
You

what makes it a home sweet home?
isnt after school or work, you get home, you will find warm home with all your love ones waiting for you?

what am i thinking?
why am i thinking of the negative side?

i hoped that we can be before
i used to hope that the time will stop for just one day
but now, i dont
i hoped that the time can move faster than before
i dont mind getting old
cause i wanna change my mindset that there is a home sweet home
there is a home where i should belong

2009-06-09T20:58:00.002+08:00

today is a boring first day of work
just sit there stare blindly at those people
the smell of xxx is making me so sick of them
i just couldn't stand their smell

why why why?
why am i working this job when i just cant stand certain type of people?
the smell and the language of them made me wanna walk out of the room

why am i so unlucky to work at the main and not the branch?
why must i wait for 3months to get the uniform unlike the branch, they can get their uniform on the second day?
why am i so suay not to work at the thumb print section?

anyway, i am not going to work
i am resigning tomorrow
the reasons are, i need to get up early like 5.30am?
and yes, i am kena 'conned' to get there by 8am today
and ended i punched my card at around 8.03am
and and, they told me that i start work at 8.30am
which means they counted my time in is 8.30am
*wtf*
they thought i stay damn near to the workplace
or just to let them see i reached there damn early?

fine, everthing's so fine
i need to resign just to make sure i attend my lesson punctual
just to make sure i didnt skip my lesson
just to make sure i have my dinner before i go for my lesson
okay, shall see how

how i miss the times i spent with you
i love the feelings you rush down to have dinner with me
you throw aside your work just to accompany me
all the little things you done for me,
i appreciated a lot
please dont leave me behind
and stay by my side
promise me, my dear?

2009-06-08T15:07:00.002+08:00

last few days, mood wasn't that good
kept throwing tempers at dear
think is mood swing or period?
true enough, it came last night
was it a bad thing?
to me, it always a bad thing

i hate my period!
i cant survive like normal girl
i will feel the cramps
sometimes the pain really want my life
i have to swallow pain killer just to relieve the pain
alright, hoped it faster go away

tomorrow start my new job
which introduced by my mei's friend
hopefully my cramp will behave herself
please dont give me any trouble and pain

wish me good luck!

2009-06-04T14:06:00.002+08:00

exams finally come to the end
maybe will resume in july?
not too sure, have to check if the NTUC have approved?
anyway, not to worry so much

now, i have time and i need to enjoy myself
miss my bestfriends :)
she still remember when i finished my exam
and she did sms me..
heehee
okay, maybe will catch up with them next week

tomorrow work again
*sigh*

2009-06-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

congrats me for finishing level 1 examination
met someone(ah bing) on my way to chinatown with my classmates
couldn't catch up with him cause we saw each other on the up-down escalator
and while on my way back to northpoint for study
met another 2 people

one was my 4 years form teacher-Mr Leong since sec 1
he is the one who changes my attitude with all his patience
i know i am stubborn from the start of sec1 to sec4
hate geography so much that i didnt buy the workbook
just cause i wanna save money on this, HAHAHA
but he was able to change me to a better person
on my N or O level( couldnt remember)
he gave me an encouragement bookmark for me
to boost my confidence?
i swear i am the only one he gave me and i still kept it

the other was my one year form teacher(sec2) and some years was my math teacher-Mr How
he gave me a bad remarks in my report book
but who cares?
report book isnt meant to be shown to my future boss right?
(one more think is Mr Albert Tan, couldnt remember as he didnt teach me at all)

anyway, chit chat with them and back to my revision
told my classmate that the red t-shirt(Mr Leong) was once my form teacher
and he said: 'wow, your teacher looks young'
for what i see, what i observe
they are still the same
they once my teacher
they once taught me

i dont care what others think of them
cause they are the one who sees me grow
they are the one who makes me grow

alright then, today isn't TEACHERS' DAY
but i am thankful that i am able to catch up with them

2009-05-31T17:59:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is my exam and yet,
still couldn't concentrate on my revison

nobody care for me
even my little ones go for their evening nap
maybe they do not wanna disturb me
but for whatever reason,
i hoped they stay by side

i am lazy nowadays
i didnt even bother about my exam
i have no mood to study

but i have already planned my schedule after my exam
why cant i just study first and plan later?

wish me good luck for my exam

2009-05-29T14:27:00.002+08:00

post this early afternoon
and have made up my mind to delete away

i know i have abit of 'nothing to do'
maybe deleting it away will save me from family conflict
whoever have read, you are lucky enough

i cant concentrate on my revision
study for awhile, disturb my 2 little ones
i need some sleep
i am tired
maybe my heart is not here
maybe i need to go out for some walk
maybe...
i cant make any assumption right now
i know my exam is next monday
i need to buckup now
i want to score well
damn it!
i want to find my heart back!!!

2009-05-28T14:48:00.006+08:00

overdue photos which was taken on our trip to jin bao

2009-05-25T12:02:00.002+08:00

overdue posts:

first,
Happy belated 21st Birthday to Xuan Hong
on 23rd may

second,
Happy belated 21st months anniversary on 24 may
for our long run relationship together

next,
sometimes i do wonder why people yearn for the past
instead of the future?
okay, i admit that i am one of them
but what can do if i keep thinking of returning to the past?
isn't time will stop just for me?

the answer will definitely be NO
time will move on and on
unless is the end of the world

there is someone i keep thinking
sometimes i do miss her
sometimes i hope that i have more time for her
sometimes i do hope that when i think of her,
she will be by my side
sometimes when i am out and see father and mother
going out with children
that make me envious of them
why am i losing my mother at the age of 17?
when i am preparing my O level and she is the one who left me
why god chose her to leave us?

i still remembered clearly
when i was preparing for my N level,
she is the one who watched me and falled asleep
when i was busy doing my revision
she is the one who stayed overnight just to accompany me

seriously, i miss mother's love
i hate to celebrate mother's day with my ah ma
she is my ah ma and not my mother
where is my mood to celebrate mother's day
when my mum is not around??

okay then,
somehow i think my mum is an innocent victim
she is the bravest mum who just fought and fought to live on

going to malaysia later on
pray for my health to get better
bon vogage for our trip
will be back on tuesday night

2009-05-22T09:22:00.002+08:00

did some researches on those people who borns in dragon year
cause dear said i and his mother's characters almost the same
the most similarity is we are both born in dragon

PARTNERS IN LOVE
Dragon*Rat
A brilliant relationship-plenty of love, mental sensitivity and understanding. Tipped for happiness.
Dragon*Ox
When it comes to being obstinate, Dragons have met their match in the Ox. The give and take essential for a happy marriage is lacking in this partnership
Dragon*Tiger
A gutsy combination full of gusto to fuel passions
Dragon*Rabbit
Your obstacles will either unite or divide you
Dragon*Dragon
If you learn to share the spotlight, you can accomplish anything together
Dragon*Snake
Clever, crafty and quick-witted-you fit together like pieces of a puzzle.
Dragon*Horse
You share a powerful sexual chemistry.
Dragon*Sheep
Despite the sexual attraction, eventually you'll find too many differences to overcome.
Dragon*Monkey
You share opinions and goals that destine you for happiness.
Dragon*Dog
A truly tumultuous affair-not recommended for peace of mind.
Dragon*Pig
A caring and deeply affectionate relationship.
Dragon*Rooster
You make a beautiful couple, but your egotism blinds you.

researches and researches still couldn't get the answer
*sad*

2009-05-18T09:59:00.002+08:00

why should i care if you people didnt bother at all?
dont ask me who am i refering to
cause i just wanna keep everything peace

awaiting for next monday
malaysia with my dad, mei and dear
lalalalala
so happy
though i know it gonna be a boring trip,
i still like it
hahaha

2009-05-16T08:35:00.003+08:00

think i have kinda of sleeping problem or disorder?
last night i slept quite late
and i have already woke up long ago
it happened once in a while
and i hate this!!

i need some sleeping pills, please......
i need to get enough sleep
i need more sleep

anyway, i going to force myself to sleep
i need to find ways to make myself fall asleep
i need to hug my babyboy to sleep
his smell will make me sleep in somehow
i dont know why

2009-05-15T10:48:00.003+08:00

kept one album of them and its really worth memories
here comes the photos:

my babyboy

my little girl

babyboy again

seriously i like him the most

end of their photos

their second batch babies

last of all, their family photo

okay, this will be their last batch babies

wont let my little girl pregnant again

when i free, will post our photos ( Me & Him)

2009-05-15T09:46:00.002+08:00

wanted to change my blogskin
but really need someone's help

i really really cannot help
last night while doing 2009 march paper
i cant get the balance
but im able to fit in some infos
where is the use if i cant balance?
i just get part of the marks and not full marks for that question
damn it damn it!

i need to work extra hard
but whenever i think of revision
i will try to avoid
HOW??

am i giving myself stressed?
alright then, find my classmate for help
will correct the answer with him and see how much i get

2009-05-14T12:11:00.002+08:00

before i go for my short nap
came here to blog for a short post

i know i am abit of good life right now
able to sleep more than enough
but think back, i need to have full concentration on my revision
so its a little worth more sleep

my routline for everyday is just the same
its never change
wake up, need to feed my two little ones
worry that they might go hungry
you know they eat before me
i rather feed them first

oh ya, next monday wei sing and fong yee have gathering
didnt able to catch up with them
exam and exam..
alright then, shall meet up with them after my exam
hooray !!

okay then, i need to catch some sleep
i am sleepy now
take care everyone

2009-05-11T17:45:00.002+08:00

my level 2 going to end soon
its mean to say i still have 4 more lessons to go
including today lesson

then soon after, exam starts
anyway, should i say i have prepared for this exam
or i take it too lightly?
i dont know?

2009-05-07T11:34:00.004+08:00

this is the mask white which i have been waiting for the promotion

usual price is $35

but now selling at $18

just got a call from my mei that cck dont carry this promotion

okay then, shall wait for kym's call

oh..by the way, i am not trying to help them push sales

just a good deal to share

wondered if there is any limit for each person

2009-05-04T12:55:00.002+08:00

think just half an hour ago
i told dear that i going to Northpoint and AMK
and now, i still at home
changed my mind not going anywhere
cause exam is round the corner
not yet prepared anything

maybe try my luck tomorrow
need to motivate myself to study from now on
somemore this week i have more time for myself
no work
yeah!

BHG super sales have just ended
4 days offer
didnt buy much for this sale
wanted so badly to buy clothes for babyboy
but didnt see anything nice
alright then, wait for the next sale
GSS......

2009-04-29T15:42:00.002+08:00

i accidentally deleted my cbox since i changed my blogskin
wanted to put it back but due to some problem
couldn't fix it on my own
have to ask my mei for help

exam coming soon and i have not been preparing for it
isn't a give up attitude or a bo chap attitude?
gods know
i really have no mood to either study or work

i know i have to study just to get that cert
tomorrow and friday have to work again
you know public holidays i hate to work
cause of my level 3 fees, i wont have to work

just cause of that little money,
i have to bear with the CHRISTOPER ANG's nonsense
i deliberately font his name up cause he is THE LOSER!
forget it, hoped he will get his retribution
and i will sit there and laugh at him

doing revision later on?
not sure?

2009-04-22T13:05:00.002+08:00

blog had been rotting all this while
sometimes i really hope i got things to do
i mean whenever i wake up

overdue posts:

went to checkup on 16/04/09
but ...
i didnt take the tilt table test
(sad thing or a good thing)
test purpose was to make my heart beat beats fast
and observe my heart beat

the reason i didnt take the test is because i scare of injection
they will inject some kind of medicine into your vein

wah lau! i really scare of injection!
i rather cut myself and let the nurse takes my blood
than let them inject
all blamed to my primary 6 when i was taking my BCG
forget it, blamed on unluckness and of course,
my gutness
whatever lahs!

okay then,
had been trying to learn to bake cake and cookies
cakes result was not really good
but thanks to my dad
he treats his friends and ate
and told them that outside can't be bought
and said we(i and my mei) learnt from japan
what a joke!

baking cookies were somehow a successful one
especially the butter cookies
shall improve on everything when i have the time

2009-04-02T22:51:00.008+08:00

as promised, lets the photos do the talking:

Happy Belated 21st Birthday to myself!

i am considered a adult

2009-03-30T23:20:00.002+08:00

less than an hour will be my 21st birthday
is this a sad news or worth a celebration?

just celebrated my birthday on sunday(29/03)
lots of people left before cut cake
really quite disappointed about it
maybe they had something on or whatever

but what really upset me is that aunty amy will not be able to make it
so she asked her hubby to represent her
whatever it is, tomorrow, my actual birthday,
i will go down personally with my mei to look for her

photos will be uploaded in my next post
and will send to those people who requested for it

lesson starts again
will be busy attracted to my studies

still remembered very clearly what wei yeong told me
: when you plan to further studies, do well
dont feel happy when you just pass

now we realised that during our school days,
it wasn't the most toughest things
but the most relaxing time
the most memorable moments
is all over now

we had to look ahead of us

okay, for my wishes,
my dear already knew it when i made a wish
haha!
i didnt tell him
maybe is my wishes are quite normal
first, everyone stay healthy
second, hoped my health report stated that i am healthy
and i do not need any health check
third, ......... hoped that i am able to find a job which i like
.................................................................................
all my wishes will come true~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-03-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

i have lost count the number of days
busy and busy led me to tired
forget it, my dear was out on that following thursday

somehow i can declare that i am jobless
i am not working so often
but is alright to me
i still love my life
carefree and full of freedom

my birthday buffet is round the corner
everything have been ordered and i have to wait for this special day
hahas!

2009-03-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

Day 9
went for checkup this afternoon
doctor said my heartbeat is normal
i really think i am normal
i dont think you people can diagnose out anything
cause i dont think i am abnormal

sometimes i really think my medical fess cost a bomb to my dad
he is the one who pays for it
he is the one who supports the family
i am the one who is not working
and spent such a big amount

sometimes i really think i can be healthy and strong
not to let my dad worry about me
and spend unnecessary money on me
hence, he can save more money

alright then, i will go for my regular checkups as promised to my dad

i felt rather guilty about it
if i can turn back the time,
i will take care of myself
i will not checkups
whatever lahs!

met up with dear in the evening

gotta catch more sleep
goodnights then!

2009-03-16T16:15:00.002+08:00

Day 8
i have grown to love to stay at home
i have enough time to play with my 2 liitle ones
they are adorable than what i have expected
LOLs1

just a sweet short poem
to whoever you may think

i think of you often...I do,
From morning 'til evening I do,
When memories bring laughter
Or moments bring pain,
There is faithfulness, too,
once again.

Time always proven to me
Both sunshine and rain,
We have gained each day
From just a friend to the love we have share dearly.

Think of what makes you cry,
Be sure that what makes you cry
Has greater desire and a more certain will

So let's stir up our passion today,
Let memories give way today,
From now to the future
For the joys and hopes and for all
The times my heart hears you call.

So, my dear,
Remember our love,
For we've come so far and there's so much to come
And I have love to yet give
For the life we will live...
together.

2009-03-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

Day 7
as usual, every weekends will be my family day
though many people of my age wont get to go out with family
they would rather give up their family
and go out with friends? boy/girl's friend?
whatever it is, i really love every sunday though it just a simple outings
just like what we waited at the Singtel shop for our queue waiting

after that, went to meet with dear as he is booking in
will be another lonely week for me
he was late and i started to throw nasty temper at him
he cabbed down to yishun just to meet me for that short one hour

goodnight
*yawn*

2009-03-14T11:12:00.002+08:00

Day 5
working as usual, no special topic to talk
pay to stand??
anyway who likes to work?
work for money or enjoy your work?
i guess majority work for money
whatever it is, i work for money

tell me which job is easier to work and get high pay?
if there is this particular easy job, i will not hesitate to accept this offer

Day 6
going to IT show later
meetups with my jie and dear joins us
i doubts i have something to buy
as now, i seldom work
that makes me save money

2009-03-12T18:06:00.003+08:00

Day 4
didnt go out due to some tummy discomfortable
just changed my blogskin
but not really satisfied with this skin
will change it in the next few weeks

actually want to put background music
but i forget the codes
really want to put zhou jielun (shuo hao de xin fu)
forget it
will try harder in the next round

next appointment for checkups on 17March
and hopefully will be my last
i really meant it cause i hate the smell of hospital

really hoped that my period will come on fixed date
i really dont know how to keep tracks of the date
its come earlier and earlier
okie, i have an irregular period

2009-03-11T15:46:00.002+08:00

Day 3
i know i am abit bo liao
kept on counting the number of days

whenever i have lessons in the evening
i will try to keep myself at home
cause one, i do not want to rush myself
two, i can save money

i have been spending money whenever i go out
so make sure not to spend
i have control my legs
LOLS!

2009-03-10T21:54:00.003+08:00

start off with:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR BEI!!
4th year le
times fly just like this

anyway, i am abit disappointed with my 21st

forget it, i have to enjoy it
without them, i still have my family to celebrate with me

day 2,
still counting for my dear to come back

2009-03-09T12:57:00.002+08:00

Day 1
my dear went in for reservist
two more weeks to go and he will be out
the saddest thing is, probably saturday he wont be book out
whatever it is, just hoped that he is fine and rain everyday
wahahaha!

my 21st birthday is coming nearer and nearer
will be a early celebration as my actual date is on 31
instead celebrate on 31, i make it to 29

anyway, just a one day advance wishing to my babyboy
tomorrow,
10 MARCH is his 4th birthday

2009-02-25T13:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday was our 18months tgt
times really fly fast
yesterday morning, dear sent me a sms
which really brightened up my day

i'm not going to type out what he sent
but i will keep and save that sms
haha!

HAPPY 18MONTHS !

2009-02-22T01:56:00.002+08:00

spending time with dear is rather short
really hoped that the time will stop when we go out tgt
can it stop for that moment?
i knw my thinking is too childish

my course is starting this coming monday
which i have been waiting for months
it is a long waiting course and i do not want to wait anymore

course starts = no time for him
i know he will understand it
just bear with me for this year
hopefully i wont have to re-sit in any exam

2009-02-17T00:59:00.002+08:00

F U C K
yes, this is my start of my post
i just think that god is making fun of me

why? whenever my course is going to start,
the provider will say 'sorry, the NTUC is not under us'

this is the second time happened

okay, fine with it
i do not want any of the subside right now
i know this is going to be cruel to myself
if this continue this way on and on

i will definitely find a better way
or even a better life for myself

i am trouble now
i just dont understand why it always happened to me
just always give me false alarm

do god really happy to make fun of others
when it had nothing better to do

PLEASE, i need to wake up now!
i cannot depend on their sponsor or even subside
i need to earn it myself

right now, i really have no mood to plan my 21st birthday
moodless

2009-02-16T01:22:00.003+08:00

it had been quite some times i last posted
going to start work in less than 10 hours time
yet, i am still awake
due to my cough

valentine day is over
and still, i remembered that single day
i know is such a simple day for us
but i still enjoyed it
dear knew it well
hahahahaha!

every single part of our story
should be enjoyed by us

my 21st birthday is coming soon

2009-01-28T13:45:00.002+08:00

before i start off,
i wish everyone a

BELATED CHINESE NEW YEAR

i know i am a bit later than everyone
due to my busy-ness

sometimes i do hate myself for not being brave enough
i just hate my own health
i cant stand it myself

why out of sudden i will feel faint?
why?

will have my checkup again on 5Feb

2009-01-21T18:26:00.003+08:00

went to FairPrice to buy this...

saw this advestisment on tv quite a few times

so gave it a try

the smell is damn smelly

it smell like bleaching

spread on the wall for several times

and realised it didnt make any difference

read up on reviews about this MR MUSCLE

comments were that..

it need to leave for 10-15minutes

so..

right now, doing an experiment

2009-01-13T11:26:00.001+08:00

it had been such a while
i have not post

in fact, my daily life is just the same
slacking..

yesterday went for checked up
due to my dad worried that i have affected by some disease
and i just went to reassure him that i am alright

need to do several checked up
before we get the report
just before my 21st birthday

will i be alright or??

2008-12-30T11:23:00.002+08:00

back from genting since friday (261208)
xmas eve and xmas was spent with my family

it was such a warm xmas
provided that dear sent me a xmas sms
and a belated 16th month

nothing to blog
as i am still wasting my time off
right now, i am seriously looking for job

i do not want to rot anymore
i wanna work!!

hopefully for the new year start
there will be more good news to come
rather than what it had happened for the past few months

i simply hate 2008

2009 is a good year to start

2008-12-18T13:34:00.002+08:00

while waiting to meet up with wei sing
i am here to post

current mood is damn excited and nervous
i am going crazy soon

191208 is coming soon
it is getting nearer and nearer

this is the date which we are waiting for

i have planned everything for tomorrow
since last 2weeks
i know is a bit crazy
but who cares

lalala~!
i love 191208

2008-12-17T00:01:00.002+08:00

sometimes i do wonder why people wanna pour cold water on me
when i have really made up my mind
this time round, i really know what am i waiting for

do they think i just like the feeling of wasting my time
for 2years? doing nothing?

in fact, most of it was waiting for the course to start
and when the date was getting nearer
they told me, 'sorry, NTUC do not subside our school anymore'

it wasnt the first time i was so disappointed

yes, i may not be young anymore
as my dad is getting older each day

i just wanna get a diploma cert and get a stable job
which i wanna enjoy in my career
cant i?

i just wanna sit down and think of my future

*why my jie can study private whereas i cant?
is there any difference?
please dont look down on me

i know you are trying to enlighten me
early in the morning just to sms me
that xxx school might close down

but why close down when i am going to study?
am i the one who dai suay to the school?

please, i have made up my mind
i wanted to study this course so much

i dropped out from RP is cause..
i dont like the school system
and i dont like the school

please let me to choose this

my dad isnt have any say in this school
as he went there with me

2008-12-12T19:59:00.002+08:00

read my mei's blog just now
and i nearly cry out
everyone of us is waiting for 191208
it is so special that we hoped time could fly fast enough

today i thought is 18th
can you see how i wish the time can move faster

i dont know what am i doing
i am jobless and i have nothing to do

just because i wish time will move to 19th
and i will continue with my life

i am lazy to look for job
i am lazy to work

mum, help me!
guide me through the right path

2008-12-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

yeah!
today weather was damn cold
and i really love this way
really hope it will maintain till xmas

i hate the weather when it is humid

maybe is because today is public holidays
that is why the weather is turning cold

*i am excited when it is cold
i am moody when it is humid

2008-12-08T00:15:00.002+08:00

sunday is such a lonely day
anyway, i know how to spend my day
and i enjoyed my day until i dont know how to say

i know, to me is just a lie
i am lying to myself
and i do not want this!

my life is lacking of someone
someone who i wanted to talk to
someone who listens to me
anyway, i just hate this!

please, let the time pass fast

i wanted so much to drive
just to surprise him
but my ah ma objected it
and she is the one who spoilt my plan

why does she want to make it to everyone
i know this is a celebration
but...... to us,
we do not want this

we want to bring him out
just for that special day
cant we??

he just needs us to celebrate with him
i know this matter is not only us

am i happy with my life now?
am i??

my uncles and aunties are going for holidays
and we?
i will wait for that day to arrive

shu shi called me and asked me to work tomorrow
which is a public holidays
is a double pay
and i choose to reject her

i have no mood to work
because the schedule is like shit
i know i havent start work and i requested so much

i do not want to work on weekends!
if she insists, i will just reject this offer

i just want my weekends to spend with my dear and family
can i?

for now, i love wasting my time
i wanted to wait till 191208 to arrive
and i will continue with my life

please dont let the time stop
please continue on clicking
please rain everyday
please, i just want my life!

2008-12-03T13:12:00.002+08:00

okay, i am back again
in a high mood
i have good news to surprise my dad

I HAVE PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!
yesterday i got my car license
and i can drive now

before i start,
i shall say that the world is kind
in such a way that god has eyes???
erm, not too sure?
but i still very thankful to those relatives
who really want to help

okay, there is no link to my license
as this is a separate issue

but the saddest thing is..
i am not confident to drive on my own
i still need someone to sit beside me

and yes, from this year onwards,
we shall celebrate Xmas with my dad

i know my dad is dying to go for holidays
as we as a family had not gone for anywhere
for such a long time
of course, we are looking forwards to this day

be it going to genting or wherever
we must leave singapore for good sake

though i have not working for more than 2months
but i am really happy with this way and i love it
i can be my 'daddy housewife'
looking after the house
cooking for them
no money is not equal not happy?

i have plenty of things waiting for us

i love 2009 chinese new year
i love my 21st birthday
as i thought the most important people in my life
will not celebrate with us
but no!

we are not dreaming.
he will be celebrating with us
he will be with us when countdown to 2009
everything is possible now

191208 is my happiest day

2008-11-20T12:48:00.002+08:00

yesterday was such a super bad day
i cried for the entire whole day
i really cannot believe it
whenever i talked about my dad
my tears rolled down

i could not sleep well
whenever i wake up,
i think of my dad
is he doing well?
is he adapting the surrounding? the people?

i am deeply in love with my dad
and i miss him so much
this feelings have never been faded

god is always so unfair to me
he had never been fair to me
whoever i treasure the most
he always taken away from me

i really hate this world
if my mum is the god
my life will be better
i won't be feeling so sad now

i really cant believe the facts
the facts are just in front of me
yet i choose not to believe it

I WANT MY DAD BACK!

what can i do now?
i am feeling so helpless
i can't help my dad at all

all i hoped is..
dont worry about us
we are doing fine
and it is the only lies i lie to you

we are feeling any better
people around us is consoling us
but what the use
if they really meant well,
just do the necessary thing and i am able to see my dad again

shit world!
i hate the world!
please, i do not hate my life
i just hate the world that make my life so sucks!

i will treasure my life

2008-11-02T00:03:00.005+08:00

today went to IMM for a walk

while waiting for my mei to call me to meet up

to visit wei jie..

me and dear went for fish feeding for our 'dead skin' for leg

the 'soft' biting

was small fishes and black in colour

the 'strong' biting

was big in size and grey in colour

really enjoyed the whole process while the fishes

were busy 'feeding' on our dead skin

but need to take the itchy when they bite our legs

erm..

here to wish wei jie will recover soon

wei jie, speedy recovery~

2008-11-01T00:14:00.002+08:00

today went for interview in
Republic of Singapore Yacht Club

surposingly is ROBORT (quite a funny name) interview
but he needs to attend to some police report
so this 2 ladies came and interviewed me
which was their first interview
they were real funny people
who jokes around and made the interview less formal

the place was damn big
and it really can feel the pressure when you step in

shouldn't talk more on today's interview
as i think i am not quite interested
due to the distance travelled

well..
my secondary school friend is currently looking for model
for hair cutting test
to those are willing to cut short their hair
which means shoulder length or above

is a free hair cut which is quite worth it
for those who wishes to cut short

for more information,
this is her blog and try to email her to let her know
you are interested in this hair cut
http://www.sweetmemoryoflove.blogspot.com/

2008-10-29T14:14:00.003+08:00

last friday was my last day of work

and therefore, i won't be blogging so often

friday evening went to watch The Coffin with dear

the running time is only 90minutes

which is so much shorter than usual movies

overall is quite a nice movies as it give me some jumps

haha!

2008-10-24T09:43:00.003+08:00

first thing first,

HAPPY 14TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY
TO ME & JOEL

just now bee hong called and looked for Jasper
and i just told her she is on materity leave
what a joke!
in fact, i forget she is back since monday
and i totally forget about it

today will be my last day in harvey norman
my 3+months contract had ended
and now..
my dept is helping me to find job too

and yesterday, one of the manager, danny
actually asked me if i am interested in admin assistant
as his wife is looking for replacement

oh great!
waiting for their calls

i need to earn more money
because my dad really surprised us
he said CNY will be flying to Australia
and we had to pay for our own expenses

shall work in converse for the time being

*how i wish i can start school now,
i really see how important a certificate
i wanna further studies and upgrade myself

how i wish times will stop moving for just a moment
and my lives still move on

how i wish i can sit down and think of my future
and yes,
i have made a conclusion and i am willing to answer
to myself for such a decision

just hoped that i won't regret it and end up making me stressed
mum prays for me, i know you are there for us
love you, ma

2008-10-17T09:31:00.002+08:00

just did one handwriting analysis test
http://www.handwritingwizard.com
and found out somehow,
it is quite true

my report outcome :

Phua is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.
Phua will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Phua an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Phua is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
Phua is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

shall post first part of it
as it is super long report...

2008-10-16T09:13:00.000+08:00

this morning heard radio that
3 japanese lady was sent to hospital
due to vegetable - bean
they didn't say which type of bean vegetable
but they suspect is from china

now china have been creating a lot of news
which brings harm to human

now whenever i wanna buy food
i just wanna check 'product of xxx'
if from china,
i confirm will put back to the shelf

i also extra careful to buy treats for my baobei
cause they...
like to eat milk

so yea~
this coming saturday going to Jusco
shall buy lots of milk treats for them~

2008-10-14T10:09:00.002+08:00

should i post this or that?
that is nothing to do with me
as i just simply hate that guy
don't show off or talk big if you don't have the ability

you are same age as me
worst thing is you are a man
which i think you don't deserve to be a man

cause what i observed i am mature than you
you still depend on your parents for money
and yet want to talk big
please lahs...
hide your egotism !

luckily god didn't make me as your partner
god is still kind to me
god know i can't tolerate you this kind of attitude

forget it! you are born with rotten brad
you think money can buy other's heart
but please, before you say anything,
think first, think if you have the ability
don't say anything just like how you fart

this is....
my contract is really up soon
and my manager is in hospital
tomorrow he will be discharge

just now was figuring out whether should i ask june
is there any valency
cause i know that last week got one girl resign liao
heard from the secretary that they are hiring people

so...
thinking for somtimes,
decide to email her and ask..
still waiting for her reply..
.........................................................................

2008-10-09T10:25:00.002+08:00

my department surposed to give me a surprise
and i didnt even know about it
until my manager told me just now

he kept on asking what type of food i like
and i insisted on a WHY word
and and..
he told me they are holding a farewell party for me

glad~
he asked me when do i want to hold
and just told him i will wait for Jasper to come back

i like my department unlike PM = 'Pui Management'
they just like to take advantages of others
i just hate that department

2008-10-08T10:50:00.002+08:00

few weeks back,
my manager told me something
which i still remember his words

he told me..
'though we have 9 hours of work,
don't tell me you 9 hours also working..
like that by wednesday,
you are taking leave liao..
actually we only need to work for 2 hours
the rest is for yourself'

omg! manager is saying this to me
like that i have the rights to be lazy?

actually..
i don't know what to do
only coming to the end of the month
need to submit reports
the rest is like..
finding things for myself??

my contract is ending this month
i wanna take a break and accompany my dad
cause i have been working and could not find any time for him
when he reaches home, i am already sleeping soundly

2008-10-07T09:17:00.002+08:00

now,
singapore has became a threat to us
just because of someone set up this silly website
http://www.stomp.com.sg/

just a simple hug or kiss
might be captured by others and put in STOMP

if doesn't give up seat to elderly or pregnant woman,
the next few hours,
your picture will be posted in STOMP

just a small matter,
and yet they want to rise everyone's attention?
i just don't get why people have nothing better to do?
isn't they are so free?
or finding something to do?

sometimes i really wonder
why human beings do not mind their own business
what if one day,
the one who post other's picture on STOMP
and get their retribution
how are they going to feel?

2008-10-06T12:05:00.002+08:00

yesterday went for my ah ma's birthday celebration
which i always don't like to go
i thought for my family,
my da gu and ah ma will just shut their mouth for just few hours

but..
i just couldn't figure out why they want to interfere my family
couldn't they just mind their own business?
i couldn't understand them at all
one word to describe them as 'KPO'

couldn't they respect the dead and leave her things to us
i know my mum had passed away for 3years but...
she is always in our home and in our heart
but mind you,
i will not allow you to throw away the things that my beloved mum leave for us

i don't care what you say bad about me behind my back or whatsoever
at least we know how to treasure
our things which NOBODY can give us anymore

please, for goodness sake,
whatever you buy for us is no match to what my mum did for us
don't just act in front of us and do those things
you are just trying find trouble for us

i may be rude/ disrespect to both of you
but i just want you to know that
please don't touch my mum's things

if it happens that you want to throw my mum's thing
i won't be so kind to respect you again
i wont't be so kind to give you face in front of so many people

i hate those people who try to disrespect my mum
i have one only mum and everything that belong to her
shall be ours

if you dare to ask my mum in front of us
that you wanna remove or throw away her thing
just go ahead and i will chase you out of my house

mind you, dont let me hate you for life
just because of this little things
which doesnt bother you at all

2008-10-02T14:55:00.002+08:00

this week shall be the boring week
as my dear will be busy at the converse warehouse sales
the last day will be this sunday (5 October)

yesterday went there and ...
always, confirm chop got lots of people
and the weather is super hot
made me sweat and sweat

maybe will be heading down this saturday
to see if there is any more "new"..

2008-09-25T14:40:00.002+08:00

liew~
i super angry and not him is ME
the incident happened last week
and you dare to talk again
who cares you are which department's manager
or whoever
i dont give a damn to you

i am not under you
so stop whatever nonsense
just to make me ashamed

hack you
you want room for meeting
is none of my business
if you want to use, just use
hopefully, one day,
you were chased out by someone

2008-09-18T17:43:00.002+08:00

before the time is 6pm
i came here again

this few days.........
i kept thinking of him (not my dear)
i just don't know why

each time i think of him
i will smile
it really light up my day
i just don't know why i love him so much

i am madly in love with MR BEI
everyday before i went to work
i will give him a kiss and ask him to wait for me
when night falls
before i went to bed
i will give him a good night kiss

now, i dont even feel like working
cause i just want to spend more time with him
now, i just withdraw from my course
not cause of him but is..
i no longer like the course

i know i am wasting my time
but..
i do not know what exactly i want in life
i was thinking........
what i want to be in 10years down the road

this few days..
quarrel with my dear
it made me want to rush home to hug him
cause he is the one who will accompany me

each time i cried..
he is the first one i want to share
he is the one who will sit beside me

i dont know lahs~!
i just know that he has became my NO 1
i can't afford to lose him
though he didnt leave me before

2008-09-16T15:26:00.002+08:00

i going to die of boredness
i thought this week i had to submit all the documents
and so....
last week, i rushed everything
and everything is done!

now, i left with nothing to do
tell me what am i going to do now

now, i feel sleeping..
my mind kept appearing words
'SLEEP NOW! SLEEP NOW!'

my mind is psyco my eyes to close
and heart is telling my eyes not to close
now, my mind went to psyco my brain to sleep

LIEW~
i am talking nonsense now!
i just know my eyes are closing...
it is half close

please... let time pass faster for today
i can't wait to find my bed
i very sleepy~~

2008-09-15T13:37:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really wonder why do human need love
to be loved or loved to be?
what i really meant is r/s love

Love is great when it is fresh and happening
it make us want to look forward for more love

love is the powerful word
which can make us feel happy or sad

yet, love hurts too...

If a girl cries in front of you, it means that she could not take it anymore…
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life; ifyou let her go, she would not be back to herself anymore…

A girl won’t cry easily, except in front of the person she loves the most…she becomes weak…

A girl won’t cry easily, only when she loves you the most, she will put aside her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly and let her know that she’s the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

If a girl cries because of you, please don’t give her up as your decision may ruin her life.
When she cry right in front of you, when she cry because of you, Look into her eyes…Can you see and feel the pain she’s feeling?

Which other girl have cried in front of you, and because of you?
She cry not because she is weak, She cry not because she wants sympathy, She cry because crying silently is no longer possible, the pain, hurt, and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside…

If a girl cry her heart out to you, And all because of you, It is time to look back on what you have done, Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it. Cause one day….
It may be too late for regrets,It may be too late to say: "I’m sorry".
Do something for her now as Love begins with us!!

2008-09-03T16:37:00.002+08:00

i just found a great website
it real easy cause it is for primary school
somemore it is educated website
http://www.bbc.co.uk/schools/ks2bitesize/english/

try it out!
it is my new research

in order not to let my time wasted
i kept playing this website to refresh what i learnt
maybe 10 years ago??

it is quite interesting
i kena addicted to it..

so here i go and play~

2008-09-02T16:25:00.002+08:00

here again..
i am so bored!!
please rescue me~~
still left one and a half hour to go..

read through some of the blogger's post
they have so many wanted lists..
yet i did not want those of the things they are eyeing for

maybe they have target in life
but branded goods is what they really want?
i don't know..

all i want is..
my family, me, dear and people around me have a good health
most importantly, i want a good health
i don't want to eat any medicine
it make me sick

sleeping soon ...zzzz...zzzz...
i need more sleep
i need to sleep early this week
cause maybe we are going to city square this saturday
yeahs~!!!

2008-09-02T11:58:00.002+08:00

yeahs!!
i have done my new blog skin
actually planned to have a black background
but it really made me dull when i see black
no colours, no life
so continue to make white as background

i just done it within one morning
obviously, there is nothing much for me to do

having headache due to my eyes kept staring at computer
lunch time..
shall go tiong baru plaza get my atm card
waste my time going there
as sunday my card stuck in the machine
shit~~!

2008-08-29T14:03:00.002+08:00

back again~
i had 100% completed all my necessary tasks
and submitted for this month

that mean to say, i am free from workloads~
yeah~
surfing net is fun but..
it really made my eyes tired
so i rather have some paper works
or uniform/ name tag dispatch

sometimes i just hate to face the computer for the whole day
it might affect my mood
cause i got nothing to do~~~~!!!
and i might throw temper on my dear, right?
lols...

why cant they let me go home first
if there is nothing for me to do
i feel so bored, sitting there to wait for the time pass

left with 3hours 42minutes
haiss..

2008-08-28T10:53:00.002+08:00

i wanted to blog this for a long time
but my memory isnt that good
kept on forgetting..

it quite important to remember this date
08.08.08
its marked the day in which xiong had hoped for her poor eyes

i just dont know why its eyes just happened so fast
maybe cataract can be spread~
who knows

she is only 4years old and she is suffering from blindness
she cant see us
she cant see the floor
such an active 'baby' lead to this stage

i need to find something to cure her eyes and
operation is tooo expensive
i know it is our duty to look after her
but..
money problem

okay, after 3months,
maybe she is able to see us again..
08.11.08
mark the day she regain her eyesights

today is wei sing's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER~!

2008-08-21T14:16:00.002+08:00

back again
and my stuffs had done !
that means to say,
i have done 90% of my workloads for this month

left with 10% have not done due to signatory approval
whatever it is..
i want to find some interesting things to do
just to get away with the unknowing time pass

one more week to end this month
and get some kind of excited
cause going to get my pay soooon..

i have not meet my dear friend for months
yeah~
i will be meeting her this coming saturday
she is always my bestfriend, wei sing

both of us are looking forward to this day
just hoped my body will be obedient on that day

no..
is..
everyday........................................................

2008-08-11T12:14:00.002+08:00

i am so bored and here i blog again
maybe this is where i can go

i just wondering why there is nothing for me to do
i want to make myself busy
cuase when i see the time
it already time to off duty
isnt this a good idea to kill my time
haha..........

sometimes boredness make someone crazy
and somehow...
i feel like sleeping
sianssssssss...

okie, shall end here..
out for lunch~

2008-08-05T09:13:00.002+08:00

good morning, everyone~!
early in the morning feeling so sian
maybe is a good start of the day
whether is good or bad,
need to resist to 6pm
HAHA..

everyday wake up,
thought it surposed to be saturday or sunday
just want to sleep more
just want to spend more time with my 2 baobei
but i cant lahs~
time is precious

whatever~
i just cant figure out what is the purpose of living
who create living things
i know people will say is GOD
but why when they create us
we fall sick or whatsoever and
they eventually will take away our lives

haiis..
so many why why in my mind
maybe is due to NOTHINGLESS to do

okie, i just received a great call
i shall have something to do later on
YEAHS!

2008-07-30T13:17:00.002+08:00

it had been a long long while
i didnt even update
as usual, i am busy working
for the sake of money
of course everyone need money to survive

just found a new job
and had been working for 3 weeks liao
erm..
everything that can seem on the outside always perfect

but when started working in office environment
starts to realise that,
there are so many unfriendly people
they just care about themselves

people in the office will start to gossip
as if they themselves is always perfect
as if they never any mistake
whatever it is, they are ' WONDERFUL PEOPLE '

forget it, it is my new office job
and i will do my part
but not to impress them or whatever
i dont need it !

they are ' WONDERFUL PEOPLE '
very hard to socialise with them

anyway i manage to bright up my days
6pm on the dot, i will leave the office
not even a second over
i just want to get my butt out of here
just to meet my dear
haha~

2008-06-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

back again
it will be the last day for the month of june
times really passed damn fast
and i still doing nothing

other than working as part-time promoter
i dont know which company will still wanna employ me
cause i am so lack in EXPERIENCE

i mean is....
i wish to try out in woking in office
as promoter working hours are damn long
and i need to stand for the 8hours

that was time when one night
my legs were so painful
that i couldnt sleep well

i just stared blankly at the walls
i couldnt move down to hug my dogs
i had to bear the pain until its got better

i didnt wanna make any noise
as i do not wanna alert my family

i just wish to change my job environment
but no company is giving me chance
okay, think fate isnt with me right now
i just have to wait for the best opportunity to come

i got my new schedule for my course
kit told me is August
but the in-charge sent an email
stated is October
OHHHHH!
MY GODDDD!

1st july to 3rd july
i will be alone
no one talks to me at night
cause he will be spending 3days at china

okay, i will wait for you to come back

2008-06-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

back again..
last post, i had said not to see him for one week
and no
i went to meet him the next day
maybe the whole week i had been seeing him more than 5days?

omg
i didnt keep my promise
maybe is i'm too soft-hearted and i missed him so much

this coming tuesday will be our 10th months anniversary le

HAPPY 10TH MONTHS ANNIVERSAY!

2008-06-15T23:25:00.002+08:00

yeah!
i am here to blog again
just to throw all my anger out on my blog

i am real angry right now
this is the second time joel had raised his voice with me
but this time round is cause of one stupid location
that is albert og

seriously speaking,
i had been helping out in CONVERSE for more than one years
and yet, they treat us back in whatever ways they like
i dont care what threats you give me
use chris or whoever person also doesnt bother me much
in other word, i dont eat this

give me attitude if you like
if you do not have enough manpower
i will pay you back

dont come and compare me with others
i am ME AND THE ONLY ME

i know my attutide isnt good
and all thanks to working in CONVERSE
i have learnt more than what i had learnt in school
i have seen many true colours of human
everyone is thinking of themselves
everyone is selfish
so do me

listen up,
i am not going to give in and make myself suffer
i have been listening to you
just cause you cant find people
and i kpo go help
and end up
i am the one who gets sick
and now, i still havent fully recover

ENOUGH OF YOUR ALL NONSENSE AND ATTITUDE!
I CONTINUE WORKING IN CONVERSE IS CAUSE OF THE SHIT CPF
BUT NOT ANYTHING
YOU THINK I REALLY ENJOY MYSELF?

why am i making my life so terrible
if not for my course
i have plenty of time looking for a BETTER AND HIGHER PAY
and not working in CONVERSE for 8hours of standing
and pay so little

SHIT! MY LIFE IS REALLY LIKE A SHIT

i have no mood now
i do not wish to see you for the whole week
you made me feel this way
you said you wont raise your voice on me
and yet........
this happened....

give me one week to think again
sometimes i really wanna go out with you
and you said you cant
you made me lose interests

now, leave me alone
give me some peace
let me be myself
let me find back myself

good night!

2008-06-14T15:41:00.002+08:00

I have not been blogging for more than one month
*gosp*
have been busy doing my stuffs
like working and working

and yes, i fall sick
maybe it is time for me to take a rest
after a long days of work

and i will start work on monday
next wednesday and thursday
i have things to deal with

and this month
i going to retake my final car theory again
i really get so sick of retaking again and again
its like wasting my previous time and my hard earn money

i do not want to hope or wish for
cause whatever shits i hope for
it always turn out the bad way

so the best is let nature takes course

going out later with my dear
i know he had been spending time with me
whenever my break time
he will try to find time with me
i know how you treat me, my dear
thanks for everything

2008-05-09T23:19:00.002+08:00

yeahs!!
i am managed to wish my dad a
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM..
i wasnt late at all..

all these years,
he has been a good father
when we did badly in school academic
he encouraged us
and found us the best tutor to us

never once,
he gave up on us
even now.........

dad, i wont let you disappointed de~!
jia you jia you

2008-05-05T23:02:00.002+08:00

WTF
i really hate myself so much that i have doubts in myself
i cant really do one thing well
even a simple task and i cant do it well
what is the problem with me?
what the hell am i doing?
what the hell am i thinking?

am i born with no talents? no capabilities?
or am i taking things for granted?

please god,
help me..
tell me what is wrong with me?

it has been a downpour for me again and again

first, i dropped out from RP just because i have no interests
and no, i am not regretted with my decision
i have to bear the consequences

second, i could not find a better pay job
maybe is due to my low education background
that caused me to find job so hard

third, some family problem had happened
and not yet solved

forth, my course had postphoned to june
aint they know they are dragging my precious time away?
i know they just get their monthly salary
but do they think about us? our time?

fifth,........................................
i do not want to comment on this
i just freak off totally
i put high hopes on this
and yet it turn out worst than what i expected
FUCK!!!

why bad things happened after my mum passed away?
isn't she watching over us?

now, i feel that i am becoming less confidence in myself
because everything i put hope on it,
it turn out the other way

everyday, my time just passed so unmeaningless
i have nothing to aim for
nothing to look forward to
and i do not want to hope for anything anymore again

i am afraid that ..
nothing turn well for me

I WANT TO IMPROVE ON MY LIFE
I NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT
AND NOT SIT THERE DOING NOTHING
I NEED TO ENRICH THE QUALITY OF MY LIFE

I WANT MYSELF TO LIVE BETTER EACH DAY

right now,
i am feeling rather down and moodless
just because i had received one idiotic email

am i really that hard to teach?

2008-04-23T13:13:00.004+08:00

well..
i now start to feel sick of tired of looking for job
it is due to..
disappointment..

but luckily i managed to get through singapore pools
as customer service representative (CSR)
with the help from han feng
he helped me with the football knowledge

basically, i knew nothing of a football
and all i know is football is in circle shape

ya.. it may sound funny at my age
know nothing of football
but is fine to me
cause i am going to learn from the scatch

just went for a short interview
and she intends to send my resume to her client

good luck to myself and yy for our upcoming advance car theory
we will pass it

2008-04-06T01:11:00.002+08:00

had been down and moody for the past few days
i just dont know why am i behaving in this way

i had been throwing temper at him and my mei
for no reason,
i just could not control it
i just feel sorry and guilty about it

but they have been there for me,
they never left me when i am in bad mood
that made me even more guilty

haiis..
what the hell am i doing right now
feeling stressed and helpless at the same time
just because my idiotic school centre
had been dragging my time
and.. and...
i could not find a full time job

i am seriously looking for job
every interviews i went
but i was told that..
shortlisted will be called

from the beginning of every interviews
i put high hope in it
but each time,
it end up with disappointment

so right now,
if there is any interview
i just went as normal
hoped it goes well
but never put in any hope

right here
i could like to tell him..

sorry for showing temper at you
and ..
thanks for being there for me
thanks for accompany me to go to interview
thanks for making effort and time to come and find me
while i went for break
most importantly,
thanks for everything you have done for me

2008-04-01T09:03:00.006+08:00

yesterday was my 20th birthday

HAPPY BELATED 20TH TO MYSELF

and i wasnt that happy cause all i thought was..
my course would be starting soon
but it end up with disappointment
it supposedly to be started on 15 April

the person-in-charge of me called
said they had not resolved the problem with NTUC
*wtf*
what is it going to do with me
that is their problem

my main concern is let me attend the lesson
and now my lesson had been dragged to june
it really made me lost interest in studies

tell me what am i going to do
if they continue to drag my studies
i would rather not study under them anymore
i have lost trust in them
and they didnt even apologise about this matter
totally disappointed.........

2008-03-11T16:31:00.002+08:00

amazingly..
i am blogging every now and then
maybe is due to my boredness
i haven't been working for the past 2 weeks
and i feeling soooo sian.....

tomorrow i will be starting to work..
the reason is.. no money..

okie..
just bought a new dress to make up of something..
that i have lost..
and that is my teeth.. haha..

going out soon..........

2008-03-10T18:35:00.002+08:00

today is MR BEI's birthday and..
also the day my baby teeth had been removed

it is not that i don't want to retrieve it
but it hurt me
the only way is removed it

this baby teeth made a big hole in my mouth
is DAMN UGLY~!!!!
i hate it

anyway it is already removed and what can i do
there is no way i can put back that teeth
and right now,
i don't feel i am hungry

hopefully there is an adult teeth in it

btw..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING, MR BEI

he is 3years old now
and i don't seem he is growing..
hahas..

2008-03-09T11:08:00.002+08:00

SHIT !!
my teeth pain again
it really super troublesome
cause of this baby teeth that did not remove from young
it now bring me alot of trouble

primary school went for dentist
and she didn't mention to me about this teeth
didn't even ask me to remove it
and now..
it hurt me.. is real painful

HATE IT !!!

how come like that??
baby teeth had became weaker and weaker
i really scare there's no more teeth growing inside
blame it for my suay-ness..
whatever...................................................................

2008-03-04T20:34:00.002+08:00

haiis
my cbox had been deleted due to changing of blogskin
so it is a new start for me