I'm stupid

haiz.. most suay of my life.. kena caught for jaywalking.. funny rite? in my whole life.. 1st time sia.. den my neighbour oso at the traffic light.. saw me n my jie with my 2 dogs.. idiot lei.. she went to my dad's shop insults.. " ur 2 daughters so stupid or colourblind.. shout at them not to cross the road when it is red man.. or there got traffic police.. cannot c izit.. with white clothes on" idiot lor.. she didnt shout at us.. when we crossed the road den she shout.. hell la ! i'm mentally hurt ! even my dad scold me stupid.. ya.. so wat if i'm stupid? so wat? now i lacking of confidence.. the whole day very moody n upset.. when i reach home, grandma called to ask me go her hse take dumplings.. she wait for me at my dad's shop.. reach liao kena nag by her.. "u like tat caught need to pay fines of $20.. u noe anot.. $20 lei.. onli ur dad support the whole family.. ur dad's hard-earned money.. " another side.. my dad scold n scold.. " r u really stupid? u cannot c for urself? " wah lau.. i alread dun wanna rake up this matter liao.. and yet.. this 2 ppl cant spare a thought for me.. really wan my life !reach home faster go bath den go out.. find my ah ma.. at tampines.. really cool down when i saw her.. so cute.. hee.. mayb is cuz.. she bought me up.. tat's y i feel close to her.. haha..spent quite long with her.. toking non-stop.. forget to take my lunch.. she ask me eat liao ma.. i lie to her.. say 'eat liao lor'.. but very very hungry... need to tahan.. reach home ard 8+.. nobody acc me go eat.. den bo bian call my mei.. she treat me eat sia.. 1st time work n treat me.. hee.. reach home is like returning to hell again.. dad nag again.. " u very stupid la.. now no mum liao.. no one can control u.." i onli say aunty didnt shout at us not to cross.. den he continue " ya la ya la.. i not going to care abt u liao.. u now can go work, go ahead.. u dun need me liao.. okok.. dun tok abt it.. useless" really fed up.. no one wanna hear me tok...