back today and mood wasnt that good.. kena moody.. cus joel yesterday indirect ask me for stead and i rejected him.. and for sure.. his moody wasnt that good too.. i just do not wanna start a relationship so fast.. cus i still wanna play.. and i wasnt saying he is not good.. he is good but so what.. i told my mei and zijie that i dun like him.. but is that the fact?? i myself also dunno..

i told him that my studies is in a mess and i still have so many things i haven do..i wanna pursue my early childhood first.. my dream and my goal and i dun wan let anything disrupt my dream..
but is this the main reason of not accepting??

right now.. i miss him..