had been down and moody for the past few days
i just dont know why am i behaving in this way

i had been throwing temper at him and my mei
for no reason,
i just could not control it
i just feel sorry and guilty about it

but they have been there for me,
they never left me when i am in bad mood
that made me even more guilty

haiis..
what the hell am i doing right now
feeling stressed and helpless at the same time
just because my idiotic school centre
had been dragging my time
and.. and...
i could not find a full time job

i am seriously looking for job
every interviews i went
but i was told that..
shortlisted will be called

from the beginning of every interviews
i put high hope in it
but each time,
it end up with disappointment

so right now,
if there is any interview
i just went as normal
hoped it goes well
but never put in any hope

right here
i could like to tell him..

sorry for showing temper at you
and ..
thanks for being there for me
thanks for accompany me to go to interview
thanks for making effort and time to come and find me
while i went for break
most importantly,
thanks for everything you have done for me