F U C K
yes, this is my start of my post
i just think that god is making fun of me

why? whenever my course is going to start,
the provider will say 'sorry, the NTUC is not under us'

this is the second time happened

okay, fine with it
i do not want any of the subside right now
i know this is going to be cruel to myself
if this continue this way on and on

i will definitely find a better way
or even a better life for myself

i am trouble now
i just dont understand why it always happened to me
just always give me false alarm

do god really happy to make fun of others
when it had nothing better to do

PLEASE, i need to wake up now!
i cannot depend on their sponsor or even subside
i need to earn it myself

right now, i really have no mood to plan my 21st birthday
moodless