today is.. my mum's death one year liao.. finally can wear colour clothes le.. happy~woke up at 8+ cuz.. relatives came quite early.. but i managed to wake up b4 they came.. haha.. pro rite.. hee.. when they came.. dogs barking.. whose dogs r tat.. is mine ! so noisy.. lolx.. but nvm.. my mum oso liked wang wang.. his barking can... made the hse noisy?? mayb.. hee.. the hse arrived (my mum's new hse) quite big.. den burn alot alot of.. gold.. silver.. clothes.. coins.. damn lot.. the weather oso sux man.. so hot.. we sweat n sweat.. bo bian.. muz pour all the gold, silver out.. throw inside her hse..

to my mum..
ma.. though u left us quite early.. (mayb u oso dun wanna leave so early ba.. to end ur pain) we'll always rmb u.. u're my best mum.. even ah hui oso help to fold yuan bao for u.. touched ma.. haha.. share with er yi wor.. free muz come to my dreams.. i noe u always enter my dreams.. i'll oso rmb the sweet dream u give me.. i enjoyed being with u in my dreams too.. u always bring me ard.. u brought me to ur big big hse.. ( dun scold ur maid liao la.. she oso dun wanna be slack at home.. haha) brought me to buy shoe but i refused it.. sorry wor.. didnt mean it.. i hoped every night i can dream of u.. onli u..
till now.. sometimes.. i feel i lack of mother's love.. when i hear story of frenz with their mum.. i'll cry out.. dunno y.. mayb last time when u're ard.. i didnt appreciate u.. i juz take u for granted.. now.. i really feel the pain of losing u.. wat to do.. u cant return to us.. last time when u're ard.. u liked to watch ur vcd( ur most memorable day - wedding day).. always watched.. w/o getting sick of tired of it.. tat time i was joking with u.. r u mad.. everyday watched so many times.. i didnt realised u're leaving the world soon.. if i was clever.. i would noe tat.. i would have spend more time on u than on my studies.. when i dream of u.. i muz make u promise me tat.. u're watching us.. not even a sec to leave us.. mayb it quite selfish.. but i wanna have a feeling tat u always with us.. i wanna find tat feelings back..
erm.. i've so much to tll u.. so much.. nx time i muz tll u.. u muz listen to me.. cuz.. i dun wanna miss a day w/o u inside my dream..
now.. i oso quite fan.. o level n hairstyist.. all this long.. i nv think tat i'll take up course on hairstylist.. nv once b4.. is.. aft u died a few days, i n mei went to find ming er.. she ask me if i'm interested in hair things.. i tot is quite fun.. new experience.. somemore waiting for o level results.. oso interview so many but no respond.. so decided to get pass my time by.. attending course..
but.. aft a few mths.. i think i started to 'fall in love' with hairstylist.. dunno y.. it is like.. so fun.. so creative.. i nv experience this at all.. is like a challenge to me.. ming er oso wan me to learn to be independent.. she oso wan me to grow up- tat mean.. noe how to doll myself up..
ma.. i'm now like a sandwich.. studies or skills? which is impt?! both r impt to me.. due to our financial.. i think i wun waste dad's money to get into poly.. but.. ur wish is wan me to get into poly.. to follow by heart or ur wish? i dunno.. i really stressed.. i've no mood to prepare for o level..
ma.. i hoped u can find time to come into my dream.. and once u enter it.. pls.. dun go away so fast.. i've lots of things to say..
ma.. there's always one thing i wish to tll u but didnt say out
ma.. i love u.. good night ma..