now already 3.40 in the morning.. and i cant get into my bed.. still angry with the incidence which happened on sat.. it really spoilt my days.. and yet.. i cant let it go.. mayb i'm petty..
sat evening.. ming ren smsed me..

[ming ren] Hey how have you been? So long didn't hear from you le..

[me]I'm fine.. Thanks alot.. Why suddenly sms me..

[ming ren]Ha ha.. Nothing la. Just a concern;-) exam coming right? Can take it? Have you been studying?

[me]Haha.. Actually going to genting de.. All cuz of stupid sci practical.. Den cannot go.. If can rite, i rather dun go for practical..

[ming ren]Ai yo.. Genting anytime can go. Must tahan... Actually that day i met u hor u like abit different.. Don't know what happen to u. Maybe influence by ur peers

[me]Influence? Dun have lor.. Nvm.. This is wat u think of me..

[ming ren]Ha ha.. Relax relax.. I didn't think anyway. Just feel u change. Maybe now worst liao. U go see what u sms me. Last time u wouldn't reply me in this manner.

[me]Ya.. I changed.. I've nth to say..But it doesn't affect me at all..

[ming ren]Er.. Sorry to sms u;-) just treat today i didn't sms you k. Take care wor..

i really hate the sight of him.. when i talk abt him.. it really spoilt my mood.. this is the 1st time i so rude to someone.. now i noe why i so hate him..
firstly.. when we were a couple.. i gave him valentine present ( which is my 1st time handmade-fold those love shape papers.. i really not good at doing all these.. but for him.. i managed to give him on time.. even my mum noe abt this..)he didnt appreciate it.. he say.. i do this is like.. no use to him.. aft i knew it.. it really hurt my heart.. 1st time do all these already comment by ppl.. somemore tat time he is my bf.. think he takes me for granted..

secondly.. we broke on 28 feb 2005.. and my er yi passed away on 22 march 2005.. den he told me he got a new gf.. somemore.. they stead more than a week.. so fast find new gf lei.. wat he treat me as.. stead with me say wat he loves me.. den broke.. he still say he has feelings for me.. all those sweet talks i heard really wanna vomit out.. i really cant stand him.. i cant believe it !!

thirdly.. aft he n his new gf stead a yr later.. he say he wanna break with her.. den say he still got feelings for me.. den he wan me to be his mistress.. which mean.. we cant meet openly.. muz meet at night or underground.. wat the hell is he doing? i was so naive.. believe in watever he said.. i believed he like me.. and i told him i still like him.. den few days later.. he finally broke with his new gf.. i no longer hear wat he like me anymore.. now.. he say he like vina.. again.. he told me not to jealous.. i jealous for wat.. cuz.. i nv tot of patching with u.. and u nv give me a sense of secure..

now.. he nv go out with chin leng's group anymore.. find me go out with him.. wat he treat me as.. wat go swimming.. go suntan.. sorry.. i'm not tat ger who like sports or suntan.. i'm juz a lazy ger.. who hates sports juz as wat i hate u..

if i can turn back the time.. i hoped i had nv known u.. ming ren.. u really hurt me alot.. if u treat me as human being.. pls spare a thought for me.. i'm not the ger u have known b4.. u made me changed the attitude towards u.. i really cannot take it anymore.. if u're kind enuff.. pls stop pestering me.. i hoped my life can be peace w/o u.. also.. i hoped u can forget me foreva.. forget tat u nv known me too..