finally friday liao.. yea~ planned to go out.. but i'm too sleepy and tired.. actually not going to bring laptop to school.. but if i never and no laptop to loan.. how am i going to do my RJ all those stuffs.. sianz..
last night i cried to sleep.. because i really confused.. i just dun know how i feel towards joel.. so what if i like him.. what is the big deal.. who cares.. now he is picking up smoking again..
can have a minute that he can take care of himself and not letting me to worry about him.. can he?? i dunno.. am i really like him or.. i dunno.. but then.. he always make me worry about him.. and when i told him to stop smoking.. he did stop for one day.. and back as usual.. FAN LA~ he doesnt really listen to me.. and i dun wanna stop or control him.. i dun wan him to change.. i just want him to be himself.. but when he told me he go smoke or drink.. i get angry with him.. but later i will tell him not to smoke alot of puff and not to drink too much.. and get home early..