today woke up quite early..
cus is my mum de..

2 years death anniversary..

hopefully my mum lives well in other world..
and hope she can come into my dreams
or.. appear face to face with me..
i just simply miss her.. love her..

okie.. yesterday i realised that i am being betrayed..
of course i am hurt inside
and i no longer have the trust in her anymore..

if i really wanna go JB..
in fact i really wanna go JB but not with her
i would rather go with my bestie, wei sing
my 7 years of friendship who i can trust on
than someone i knew for a few months

tuesday she seemed moody..
and i just lent her my listening ear and..
i promised her i won't tell anyone about her problem
and yet.. whatever i told her..
she just said out..
enough~
i have enough of..............................
i will not say the truth about my life anymore to her

just as usual.. i will talk rubbish to her..
everything i say to her will be untrue
i won't lie to her but whatever she asks me..
will be rubbish answers..

she seems to be friendly in the outside but..
i really don't know she really think in the inside
maybe now i more and more understand of her..
she is no longer earns my truth anymore..

from now on.. anyone who i just know..
who i just contact with..
i won't talk about my life..

seriously.. i am hurt when i really trust on someone
but end up.. she takes my trust for granted..

right now, i am not angry with her
cause it is just a waste of my time
i will still live with my life

just wish that she is able to solve her problem
i have no time to waste on her

i have better things to do
i rather put my trust on my family

whatever it is..
hoped my dad's things will be solved in fast and good way..

my baobei is still the best~!
hahas~

+ i hoped my him will believe me
and not listened to anyone
believe me rather than hearing rumor..