today, 20.01.2010 was one of my sad day
baby girl only one week old
and had just passed away

i thought new year had begun
and we had something to busy to
something to celebrate
something to joy for
but now,
my hope is gone, she is gone, her life is gone

maybe i am regretting now
why must i work?
is her life better than my job?

i dont know and i dont wish to find the answer out
maybe this is not her wish too

i took 2 days mc just because i knew she is coming to this earth
and i took one unpaid leave just to make sure she is well fed
i talked to her everday, i fed her everyday
i really dont mind that 10mins to feed her with milk before and after work

maybe that 10mins was too little for her,
she needs more care and time from us

just a short one week, i am really cried for her
i missed her small body
i missed her yawning faces
i missed carrying her with my hand
and i missed feeding her

goodbyes, baby girl
you are my love, goodbye